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Conflict! What happens when you take your sailboat home to your homeland?

May 23, 2016 11 Comments

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I feel all mixed up inside. My shoulders are tightening. My stomach has a heavy blob feeling to it. My head is scattered. I feel as if I should be stable, balanced and calm and at times I do catch a state of mind that’s at peace but those moments are fleeting.

I know that time will take its course and it won’t be long before my jumpy feelings subside but living through them is uncomfortable. Why does change and uncertainty have to be so uncomfortable? Considering that I’m changing from one amazing situation to another I don’t understand what the nerves are for?

take your sailboat home

If it weren’t for the hurricane season that’s soon to arrive, we wouldn’t have to leave the Caribbean

Ironically, our passage from the American Virgin Islands to Puerto Rico could have been described in similar fashion to my state of mind and body. The trade winds pushed us from behind and the boat wallowed, shifted, banged and dipped far to the left and far to the right.

Both Britican and I are moving forward but it’s as if we don’t want to

So what’s causing my flippant feelings as I look over the tropical turquoise waters of the Caribbean? Why am I reluctant to close one door and move to the next? Heck…I should be able to transition to the next chapter as new chapters start almost every few months!

Our plans to move out of the Caribbean are for two reasons: Safety and insurance reasons

Hurricanes start forming in the Atlantic in May increasing in size and severity as the summer goes on. Our insurance provider requires us to find a hurricane hole in the Caribbean or move north or south out of the region.

Many full time cruisers drop down to Grenada, an island still in the Caribbean above South America that is deemed as ‘safe.’ There are many other places called ‘hurricane holes,’ that provide boaters a safe haven for the months of June to November. Other boaters have their boat pulled out and stored on the hard taking a few months off to travel home to see friends and family.

And then there’s boaters that drop down to South America or head up to North America

We’ve decided to head North to the States. Considering our plans to head into the Pacific next year or the following year, now is the time to visit with our family and friends in America.

The plan is to stop in Florida first, meeting up with my father. I haven’t seen him in a very long time (perhaps 7 or 8 years) and my daughter; Sienna (age 6 now) has never met him.

After Florida, we’ll head to North Carolina staying in Wilmington to get boat work done. Within a couple hours from the marina are my brother and his family (my lovely sister-in-law, nephew and niece) and my mom and stepfather. And then we may or may not sail up to New York and take a flight up to my hometown of Rochester to visit my grandparents, aunt, uncle and friends. Either way, we’ll get to Rochester it’s just a matter of where we’ll leave the boat.

For five months we’ll spend time getting the boat serviced, visit with family and friends and do a bit of sightseeing

If things work out I might also put our daughter, Sienna, in school for a few months so to ensure I’m keeping her on par with her peers and allowing her time to socialize with kids her age. I’m not sure what I’ll find in Wilmington or whether school systems allow for three-month stints, but failing that I’m sure there will be some homeschooling groups to get in touch with.

So why my inner turmoil?

On one hand I’m super excited to see my family. I can’t wait to get a hug from my dad and have him take a look at his amazing granddaughter. I can’t wait to lounge out on my mom’s sofa and get home cooking fed to me on request (mom spoils me when I come ‘home’). I’m excited to see my brother and sister-in-law – we always have a blast whether we’re sitting in front of the television, doing a segway tour of a city or hiking a mountain. And having plans to see all my family up in New York is very exciting.

But…

But, I’m scared and I’m not sure why?

Perhaps I don’t want to leave the freedom of being at anchor and not having anything planned out? Maybe I’m afraid that returning to land will make me feel constricted.

I’m scared that I’ll go shopping and see amazingly lovely things that I know I can’t buy because I don’t have a house to store them in. I’m worried that Sienna will be affected by all the commercialism and develop an ‘I want’ list a mile long.

I’m also afraid that perhaps I’ll like being ‘home’ so much and not want to leave

Some days I look out at the beautiful sea, the tropical beaches and open sky thinking I’ll never want to leave this lifestyle.

Other days I want to curl up on a sofa in a large house with air conditioning, eat chili and have a shopping spree on Amazon.com for next day delivery. The old Kim loved to shop…Often it wasn’t so much about actually buying things, it was more about window shopping – online or in person. My old daily routine was to walk into town (in Aylesbury or Gosport, England) get a coffee at the coffee shop while doing work. I’d then wander for an hour or two looking in shops. If I entered a bookshop I’d be an extra hour – I LOVE REAL BOOKS and I love taking hours to read the back of books, smell the bookstore smells and get lost in fact and fiction. For two years I’ve had to get lost on Kindle and let me say it’s not the same!

So…perhaps I’m scared that our five-month stay in and around North Carolina might demonstrate what I no longer have

Furthermore, it’s been twenty years since I’ve stayed in the States for longer than a vacation.

Not only am I going ‘home’ I’m taking my home with me. Will I want to keep both homes in one place? Will I want to get a real home on land and be close to my family so that I can go to my nephews soccer games, help my mom with her garden and provide my daughter with the kind of upbringing I experienced? The all-American childhood?!

Some days it’s hard being abnormal. Some days it’s difficult being the person that goes against the grain and says ‘I’m going to do it my way…’

A nice fellow put a comment and quote to my article about what cruisers panic about and I think it’s the most apt passage to end my article. I suppose I know these things but often I fail to remember them in times of need:

To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: 3:2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; 3:3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; 3:4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; 3:5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; 3:6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; 3:7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; 3:8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace. (From Ecclesiastes)

I suppose it’s time, or the season, for me to bring my home ‘home’ and I’ll just have to wait and see what that means for me.

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  1. Nancy says

    May 24, 2016 at 3:54 am

    Well said. We are starting a new journey. Perhaps not as bold as yours but step one was selling our home. Step 2 will be just spending the summer on our boat. We will see where that leads.

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  2. Shelley says

    May 24, 2016 at 5:40 am

    We spent time in Wilmington 2 years ago. Absolutely fabulous. Those 5 months will wizz past so quickly you’ll see. Enjoy spending time with your family, recharge your batteries and sightsee. We are coming over to Florida at christmas too. Xx

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  3. Terysa says

    May 24, 2016 at 10:16 pm

    This article really struck a chord with us- we’ve got very mixed feelings about heading back to ‘civilisation’ after a year of full-time sailing and heading back to London after a season in the Caribbean will be a huge culture shock! At least you’re able to take your home with you… we’re leaving our lovely boat in Antigua for the hurricane season and are already suffering from separation anxiety! Will read with interest how you and your family get on being back in the US- I understand your nerves, but I’m certain this time next year, you’ll be glad you took the opportunity to spend the time with your family. And even if you start craving ‘normal’ life, I’m sure you’ll adjust back to boat life very quickly, like all us liveaboards do. Good luck! Terysa and Nick, s/v Ruby Rose.

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  4. David B. Zaharik says

    May 25, 2016 at 4:36 pm

    Kim… wonderful note. Its funny because I am feeling the same in the opposite direction as I begin to prepare to leave! BUT you hit a nerve (in a nice way) with your closing paragraph! Lovely… be at peace.

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  5. Elisa Sagramoso says

    May 25, 2016 at 10:27 pm

    Dear Kim,
    I am Italian, me and my husband LOVE sailing, and therefore I have been reading and following your fantastic sailing adventure, I deeply wanted to be in your life so much, as I used to have a sailing boat until few years ago, and my biggest dream is to sail around the Mediterranean, just like you did, at least to begin …..
    But, there is always a “but”, I have 3 daughters, 22, 21 and 17 years old and, can you imaging to have them sailing around with us??!! What about their university and school? And friends and their activities? Ohh, yes, I could always let them in our home to live their lives by themselves, and write them a lovely email from time to time, or even make a nice Skype at evening. And, furthermore, I had also a mother, who died one month ago ….., can you imagine, I wanted to share these last years with her, every day. And now I thank God I did it!
    So, to do all this I am far away from any sailing boat ……
    But still my dream is sailing. But not possible.
    Not possible because we (me and my husband) we have chosen OUR FAMILY.
    And THIS is life, THIS is living for the people we love.
    So, PLEASE, don’t you think too much about YOURSELF, and YOURSELF and YOURSELF every day, for any daily occasion.
    And, finally, you said how courageous you have been to follow your dream and abandon the “normal life” for a “dream life” …..
    Come on, the courageous people are those who can postpone their dreams for the good and the love of the few people they care.
    However, I like to see your YouTube channel and your adventures, but don’t you think to be neither courageous nor altruistic.
    Sorry for my terrible English.
    Take care and have a safe trip to Florida.
    Ciao,
    Elisa

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  6. Tim says

    May 27, 2016 at 10:24 pm

    My wife and I both think you are great!!
    The honesty, openness and insightfulness with which you write is quite inspirational and a very useful resource as to the challenges of embarking on the cruising life…
    We share some similarities with you in that I’m also British and my wife’s American however we are currently living in the states.
    We’ve been exploring giving up our current lives and embarking on an adventure for some time and we are truly inspired by you guys

    Thank You

    T & L

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  7. Doug Cross says

    May 28, 2016 at 3:04 pm

    You scared ,worried ,unsure .Thats not the Kim I have grown to know thro your blogs face book and your comments on your own web site .My understanding of your whole trip is Simon and your adaptability and that seems to overcome all situations .The pair of you put a Swiss Army Knife to shame.

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  8. Rick White says

    June 8, 2016 at 11:42 pm

    Hi Kim, Simon and Sienna,

    I came across your web site by chance as my wife and I look into the possibility of retirering one day and doing a very similar trip to your great adventure! What you have achieved is fantastic, highly commendable, it takes vision, will, determination and a leap of faith to risk all you had and ‘actually doing it!’ Most only dream of what you have achieved or can’t because of commitments and never actually have the balls to take that final step in selling up and sailing away… it does take a huge amount of guts..

    When I was in my late teens, (48 now) my father sold our house, we made our way to Gib, we bought a 9m Catamaran, and learnt to sail. We spent 3 or 4 years living and working in Marina bay and had a blast, Some of the best times of my life were had there, We sailed the Spanish coast, Balearics, France and eventually the French canals and Bay of Biscay and home. It is the memories of those times which have rekindled the interest of doing it again and more!

    I enjoy your writing, you are talented! Your planning, working tips and honesty are brilliant, The fact you write about yourself your feelings and adventures I believe is what your followers want to read so we can get to know you and your family and live the adventure through your eyes and emotions.
    It is obvious to most that the website is designed to be informative, a way to record your journey and also to provide a funding stream to aid this epic adventure, A clever idea utilising your business talents!

    Safe sailing Britican.

    Looking forward to the next instalment….

    Rick

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    • Kim Brown says

      June 16, 2016 at 5:57 pm

      Thank you so much for your feedback and story Rick. I really appreciate it. 🙂

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  9. Jay says

    July 3, 2016 at 9:38 pm

    Although the undercurrent of commercialized society may be repulsive, it is easy, easy, easy to get lulled back into the comfort zone. Family members will be “worried” and “just want the best for you.” Decades ago, I failed to listen to my grandfather (submariner) who told me to get back underway ASAP because others are “unable to comprehend…. have never tasted real freedom….”
    (can’t remember his exact words).
    1996 was the last time I weighed anchor, I pray this does not happen to you.

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    • Kim Brown says

      July 5, 2016 at 5:32 pm

      Thank you Jay…I hear your words and I have a strong feeling that won’t happen to us. I’m writing an article about it now, quoting you in it! Thanks for taking the time to write to me 😉

      Reply

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